Jacob...

It was a cool November day two days before Thanksgiving in fact. At a little past 11:00 am one of Heavenly Father's very special spirits entered the world. At first everything looked great 10 toes, 10 fingers, but for some reason a mom and dad looking at their new son thinking there is something quite not right with him. Fast forward to two years of no sleep maybe 3 hours at a time once every two weeks or so, taking turns being up with him all night. Rocking him, holding him, tyring to sooth him. Then came the fact he didn't walk until he was two years old he didn't talk until well we are still working on his speech. But through all of this a beautiful little boy all full of smiles all the time named Jacob Rushton enter my life. Always willing to give the best loves in the world, and until two weeks ago a mom not really realizing the special spirit that he is. I have always prayed for Jacob, he was and still is always sick, I prayed for his health, for his understanding, but most of all I prayed for me his mom. I know every mom, well almost every mom who is in their right mind prays for their children. My prayers about Jacob were always a little more than what I prayed for with my other children. I pray a lot that I will know when Jake hurts, when Jake needs help understanding. I pray I will have strength to understand him what is best for him. Two weeks ago I really woke up and felt the spirit and really realized that I have been in trusted with one of Heavenly Fathers special spirits. It is upon mine and Lynn's shoulders to help keep him safe and feel loved. I also realized that this special boy will never have the opportunity to live on his own. Or to feel the freedoms of his other siblings. He will have his challenges, his wants and not understanding them and how it will be up to us his parents to love him and help him understand to his capability. I know I am not the first mom to have been blessed with a special spirit to look out for, I know I will not be the last. But for me it is a blessing and a trail that the Lord in trusted me with. I did not realize this but I read my patriarchal blessing and for the first time I realize i was blessed with the love and strength I would need to handle my most important assignment as a mom my Jacob. So now when the days come that are full of heartache and tears I have a better knowledge and I feel a little more peace knowing the Lord loves me and is aware of me enough to know that I can handle this trail. He trusted me enough to send one of his most special spirits to my home for love and care while he is here on earth. I now know how hard I will need to work to be worthy to live with Jake in the eternities and see Jake's special spirit be whole once again...

February Happenings...

February happenings have been plenty and full as always it seems like lately. Some of the biggest things that have happened this month have also been very emotional for me. So we start off with the first week or so of the month. My baby girl Meg turned 12 on the 8th. Yes I am still a little teary eyed about it. I was looking at her picture book and she was so cute and round as a baby. She didn't have much hair but what she did have was very blond. In some of our family pictures she would have two cute little pig tails in her hair and only because of the bows that I put in her hair is the only reason you can tell she had some hair. She had the cutest round smile. I look at her now and still see that cute girl but now it is a different cute, a more mature cute and her smile still as cute as ever. She had a birthday week this year, it seemed that everyday for a week we had a party or dinner going on for her (she deserved every celebration she had). When I asked her what she wanted for her birthday all she wanted was her temple recommend. Boy, I am so blessed to have such an amazing daughter. On Sunday the 12th of February as parents Lynn and I had a day you dream off, the feeling of the spirit in our family was more than words could describe. We started in the morning after fasting for a day, at 9:30 am Lynn, I and Josh went and Josh got his patriarchal blessing. After listening to his blessing I just hope I can stay worthy as Josh's mom, the Lord has big plans for Josh and Josh is up to the task. Again how blessed am I to have such an amazing son. Afterwards we went to church and Meg went to young women's for the first time. Yes, I did cry all day in fact (it was a good cry, a cry of I can't believe my family is growing up so fast). That evening we went to New Beginnings with Meg. Now that brings us to our newest happening in the Squire house hold, today February 22nd Josh got his driver licence, he is official I don't have to be in the car with him anymore (YEAH)!!! Now if Trav would just study a little he could have his learns permit anytime this month. I just have to end by saying, I love my family, I have been so blessed, I have been blessed with a husband that I love more than words can say and I know he loves me just as much. I have be blessed with children that know the gospel is true and work hard everyday to stay worthy of the blessings that come from working hard. Our family has been very blessed through the years and I know it is the Lord and my Savior who has provided those blessing.