It's time for a update...

So for some reason blogger would not let me log in the past 2 months.  Really it wouldn't let me that is why I'm behind.  So I am going to give a fast over look at what has been happening in the Squire family.  It's been a very busy spring and summer but what's new about that. In this family that is all we are busy...
    Somethings that are new are Travis got a job at Leatherby's both he and Josh are working there and from the sounds of it they like making their own money.  Meg is growing up and is the biggest helper in the house a very reasonable young woman and I don't know what I would do without her.  Jake is on a waiting list for a special program at the University of Utah the hope is he will start it by mid August.  Ben is driving me crazy I have forgotten what it is like to have a kindergarten baby around, got to love that...
     Everyday is an adventure but I'm loving it.  This summer has been so crazy but it helps the time go by and the kids haven't had time to be bored YET!!  This past week we had our stay-at-home vacation.  Because of Jake being on the waiting list and because it is going to cost us an arm and a leg to put him into this program we scaled back our vacation plans.  So we started off by throwing a big 4th of July bash ( really it was for Taylorsville Dayzz).  I hope everyone that was invited enjoyed it as much as I did.  Believe it or not I really like to give parties for the family!!  Then we went to Lagoon and then bounced back the next day for Lagoon-a-beach.  This was the most fun and relaxing week we have had in a few years. IT wasn't much but maybe that is why it was so relaxing we didn't have to plan out and make sure everyone was having a good time.  The kids all loved staying together at Lagoon and riding everything together.  We visited with each other and loved teasing one another.  It was great.  Then we topped it off by having a BBQ with the Light family.  We spent the day at the pool with all the cousins and great food.  I need to stop eating for a week to get my body back on track (way to much junk food).  I can't complain to much I didn't gain weight, just gained an off balanced body.
   Because I'm writing this for me because no one really reads blogs anymore I wanted to take a minute and tell the love of my life Lynn how I have been feeling lately.  My love for you grows everyday.  I am so thankful for your love and support for me with all of my craziness and stress with the family the past few months.  I don't know why but having 3 teens in the house has really thrown me for a loop.  I really haven't handled it great I know, but knowing how much you love me and all the flowers you have brought home to brighten up my day has helped so much.  I love you with all my heart...
   Well that is about it for a day or 2 pic's to come soon....

Jacob...

It was a cool November day two days before Thanksgiving in fact. At a little past 11:00 am one of Heavenly Father's very special spirits entered the world. At first everything looked great 10 toes, 10 fingers, but for some reason a mom and dad looking at their new son thinking there is something quite not right with him. Fast forward to two years of no sleep maybe 3 hours at a time once every two weeks or so, taking turns being up with him all night. Rocking him, holding him, tyring to sooth him. Then came the fact he didn't walk until he was two years old he didn't talk until well we are still working on his speech. But through all of this a beautiful little boy all full of smiles all the time named Jacob Rushton enter my life. Always willing to give the best loves in the world, and until two weeks ago a mom not really realizing the special spirit that he is. I have always prayed for Jacob, he was and still is always sick, I prayed for his health, for his understanding, but most of all I prayed for me his mom. I know every mom, well almost every mom who is in their right mind prays for their children. My prayers about Jacob were always a little more than what I prayed for with my other children. I pray a lot that I will know when Jake hurts, when Jake needs help understanding. I pray I will have strength to understand him what is best for him. Two weeks ago I really woke up and felt the spirit and really realized that I have been in trusted with one of Heavenly Fathers special spirits. It is upon mine and Lynn's shoulders to help keep him safe and feel loved. I also realized that this special boy will never have the opportunity to live on his own. Or to feel the freedoms of his other siblings. He will have his challenges, his wants and not understanding them and how it will be up to us his parents to love him and help him understand to his capability. I know I am not the first mom to have been blessed with a special spirit to look out for, I know I will not be the last. But for me it is a blessing and a trail that the Lord in trusted me with. I did not realize this but I read my patriarchal blessing and for the first time I realize i was blessed with the love and strength I would need to handle my most important assignment as a mom my Jacob. So now when the days come that are full of heartache and tears I have a better knowledge and I feel a little more peace knowing the Lord loves me and is aware of me enough to know that I can handle this trail. He trusted me enough to send one of his most special spirits to my home for love and care while he is here on earth. I now know how hard I will need to work to be worthy to live with Jake in the eternities and see Jake's special spirit be whole once again...